I feel like a fetus
I understand that you're older than me. I really do. And I understand that you've had life experiences and training beyond my years. But honestly. Just because I am 21 does not make me a lesser human. I am not dumber than you. I am not less mature. Sure, there are plenty of 21 year olds that have the same maturity level of a 5-year-old. But George Bush is a damn lot older than me, has the
I've been talking to people about midwifery options, because I honestly do not want to be a CNM. That's the path that I'm on- I'm in pre-nursing school and all that. But I don't want to be taking orders from an ob. I do not want to give everyone episiotomies and epidurals and get them ready for c-sections. So what can a 21 year old do, huh? Have a baby- that's a good way to be a midwife, someday. Baring that, get experience. I am not ready to have a baby just yet, and I am so very against people having babies for reasons other than loving themselves and their husbands and their soon-to-be-babies. So experience. Sounds easy, huh?
How the hell do I do that?
I am having trouble finding doula clients because I don't have enough experience. I think it's also because I haven't been charging money, but that's beside the point. I'll start doing it now, I guess. Can't hurt.
I think I'm going to stay in nursing school and get my CPM then. I think I think. Maybe. I just wish I could get some positive support instead of "Well, if you were like this, but you're not" a thousand times over. I wish people would get over my age and look at me and realize that I'm a person, not an age. Ocassionally you hear about agism in the workplace, not hiring older people etc. But damn. Agism works both ways.